We gotta disconnect

This love shit is all a test

6LACK probably said that shit best

“I’m tryna work it out but we got a disconnect”

I’m feeling like if we’re having "fuck it" contest

You know, on who can pretend "not to care" best.

Whew Chile, I’ll pass.

Normally that’s my thing

But why is trust so scarce and our "crazy" is brilliantly displayed.

It’s a lot harder to accept the things we dish out, isn’t it?

Wait wait wait

Is my spoon really much bigger than yours?

Or do we not dish the same serving sizes?

I honestly don’t want to spend too much time stressing over the “goes around comes around”

Nor the back and forth

Or the who deserves what

So let’s skip this

We slowly started talking less.

Communicating less.

I swear it’s the worst,

But it may be for the best.

I mean

I’m overthinking

Without understanding

There’s no attempt

when I’m this demanding.

I swear to bob

i wanna push you away

But there’s tears on my face

as i beg you to stay.

Don’t tell me that I’m tripping

Don’t tell me how to feel

Don’t tell me you’ll do better

Just tell me somethin real.

Love is a suicide mission.

I’m tired of wondering.

I don’t like how comfortable you are not speaking to me for hours leading to days.

I have this strong urge to make you feel as unimportant as you’ve been making me feel lately.

But you wouldn't even notice.

Probably wouldn’t care.

I want to trust you so badly.

But theres bullshit in the air.

Nothing you do helps.

Nothing i do helps.

So say something back,

What is it I lack?

Are these unwanted words.

My mind is screaming,

I thought i was dreaming,

Til you recited what i heard.

The disconnection.

-kilo

October 31, 2018